LizzaeMcLiz

Scrubs Logic

"Nothing in this world worth having is easy."

In watching the most depressing episode of Scrubs I've ever seen...
I don't know. I'm not sure how I feel about everything.
I've been having weird dreams.
I had a dream last night that I could fly and I was had to make it all the way over the entire Inner Harbor or I'd fall in and drown, but it was night time and freezing cold and the water was endess and pitch black and very scary. I think I may have woken up before I ever made it all the way over.
I feel like about 75% of my life has fallen into place, which probably isn't an accurate number but as long as it feels accurate...
I've found myself being happy all the time. I have nothing to be sad about. I have things I can be annoyed about, or there are things I need to buck up and work on but...life seems to be going indefinitely well. I hope that won't put some kind of jinx on things.
Even the things that I think I normally could have found sad or depressing don't seem like that big of a deal anymore.
While I said I miss being in a relationship, I don't think I'm interested in one currently. I have been finding I like myself much more than most people after any extended amount of time. People tend to continually and without fail, disappoint.
I miss you...but I only miss the good things. I haven't forgotten the bad and it makes the good bittersweet but...I can't stop.
I've tried. I keep trying. I think it might be getting easier, but then again, I could be wrong.
I go on a Cruise in one week. I fly out Sunday so actually, probably less than a week. I keep forgetting about it and in fact only just remembered. Another thing to be super excited about! School is over, I don't think I did half bad, break is here, I get to work more(!), winter and Christmas are coming, I'm going on a cruise. What is there to be sad about?
It's cold outside today but sunny.
Dan's married. Wes said something about "Dan's wife" and I subconsciously corrected him. I said "fiance". Wes looked at me and said "No, wife." And then I realized what I said and we laughed about it but it was a little unnerving. Damn subconscious.
It's too bad I'm not seeing Ray LaMontagne when he comes to town. It's a shame people can be so utterly ridiculous despite everything and be so completely exactly typical. So disappointing.

posted by Lizzae @ 8:26 AM