LizzaeMcLiz

Some beach, somewhere

Blargh. I hate that I have one of these things. I hate that I feel compelled to write in this thing.

Something happy...

I love sitting at my computer, drinking tea, being in my pjs, and listening to music. I feel like I'm in my niche and I'm happy. How do I expand that feeling? I miss feeling comfortable in my body. I don't necessarily want to be skinny so I can be attractive to other people (although that's always nice) but so I can be comfortable in my skin. I loved who I was when I felt fit and wasn't always wondering if I looked fat in something. Ever since I gained a few pounds, I've just felt kind of off. In order to expand my feeling of belonging and comfort I must: get into shape. Not necessarily get skinny or lose weight, just get into shape.




TOMORROW IM LEAVING FOR THE BEACH FOR A WEEK.
(ok maybe not one nearly as beautiful as this one)

Ideally that means: sleeping in, going to the beach all day, getting a tan, smoking and drinking with my friends, passing out and doing it every day for 7 straight days

What will probably happen: I will get up early, go to the beach, get hot, come back to the room, smoke in the AC'd room, take a nap, eat, go back to the beach, go to the pool, fight with my sister like we're 12 again, go out with friends and pass out and do that everyday for 7 straight days

Either way, I better get a fucking tan and some color in my cheeks. I look like a ghost.

My job is boring. I hope I don't forget to pack my books I want to read that I stole from Stacey (shh) for the beach. I hope I don't forget anything actually. I kind of want a nap.

posted by Lizzae @ 4:16 PM